实习医生格蕾第七季

Callie, don't go, please stay with me, with us.The first time I saw Callie, frankly I didn't like her at all. She was such a little and innocent girl stealing George away. Later, she fell in love with Arizona, and I disliked her more, thinking well you have finally found your true love as a lesbain and can start your party now ha, though she became a little bit more independent, seemingly. But God, she played so hard. When Arizona left to Africa and said those terrible words to her, it is Arisona, but not Callie, who behaved irresponsibly; when she tried her best to take care of her best friend Mark Sloan, and loved Arizona back, it is her who behaved so bravely and honestly and tolerantly. No one is perfect, but everyone has a crowd to cry for her when she is about to leave. And at this moment, I am a person who loves Callie just as much as Arizona, and Mark, and anyone else does in the hospital. If I were Arizona, what would I do?I cannot help envisioning the moment that someone I care so much leaves me. I will cry to death, and I will cry at his bed and say, 'don't leave me, stay here, and I want nothing if only you stay here.' Sometimes we love and desire, but if one day the objective person we desire so much is leaving, and when there's no more pain we can afford, we will learn to give up something even to give out something, to save him back, and leave alone. No, no. It's not that complex to wait till the moment you leave. I can not bear the smallest possibility that you get hurt even of the tiniest kind. No I can't. So please forgive me, for not being able to love you anymore, for my betrayal of my soul. Nothing comes easily, and I want to turn your grief into grace.I think that is what Arizona wants to say, too. Thank God, you are still here. Enough.

Derek 和 Meredith 这一对，感情顺顺利利走完两季后，终于在第七季的末尾，break up。

不得不说，Derek的妈妈真的是一针见血，derek see things in black and white ,but Meredith doesn't.他们都需要彼此，但也可能，这就是矛盾的出发点。

derek对对与错，黑与白有着极致的追求，有着极度不妥协的价值判断。

从这看来，Meredith 看上去mass ，dark and twist.蛤！

有太多例子了，因为derek一开始选择了Addithen,开始了荒唐混乱的私生活；伸手进病人身体里握住炸弹；“不明原因”的进入水中险些完蛋；在与derek的关系里不断躲避完全不知道他们在干什么；同情一个杀死了六个无辜女人的杀人犯病人；跟持枪者说“shoot me”，以及因为一个病人的关系对临床实验做手脚毁了整个阿尔兹海默症实验不得不说，一开始接触这部剧时，不喜欢mer，一个因为妈妈对小时候自己的不管不顾与漠视，长大后易受伤害，敏感，犹豫不决，生活一团混乱又不加管理的人，dark and twist这两个形容词真的是绝了！

但渐渐的，我开始了解这个人，开始理解她的一些抉择或犹豫，也就开始喜欢她。

她可能遇到一些事就选择躲避，对改变害怕恐惧，对美好不自信的接受，但她有着她特有的坚持，她会一直支持Derek的肿瘤实验尽管有那么多次的失败，她看见糟糕从来不躲避，她某种程度上是最坚强的人。

她可能生活一团混乱，经历过无数糟糕的事情，但也正因如此，她能够去理解并安抚因疾病而几乎崩溃的患者家属，她也足够坚强去包容生活中的mass，去care others。

她小时被冷落无人保护的经历，可能使她对很多事情抱着悲观的态度，却会不顾被辞退，逼迫让一个女人离开家暴的男人，站出来去保护六岁的女孩。。。

虽然在她的很多决定上，换作是我，可能不会与她有着相同的做法，但我却完全能明白她的决定，她是一个那么那么坚定的人在她对how to be human 这个问题的回答上。

或许正是dark and twist，也造就了who she is. 我喜欢这个剧中的蛮多的人，Derek，Cristina，Meredith，他们的性格几乎完全不同，却有着相同的一点，对自己how to be human 这个问题的回答，坚定不移。

一个那么爱手术的christina不要手术了，成天研究婚礼，对手术视而不见hunt手术，她不敢独自一个，跑到grey家，推开门看到derek也在床上，犹豫了。

grey醒了，毫不迟疑的，说他在睡觉，示意过来。

christina犹豫了一下，过去了。

瞬间就被感动了，亲爱的，我不能没有他，更不能没有你。

他是我的人生伴侣，但你是我的灵魂伴侣啊！

第二天，derek发现christina在床上，一秒，立刻RR的翻身，缩到更边上。

此时的derek是我觉得最有魅力的derek。

之后他尽力的帮助christina，他对hunt说，她们任何一个不好，另外一个也不会好，我们就是尽量的保护她们。

christina依然抗拒手术，derek找她聊天，说，如果是我个人，我们不会有交集，但现在我们是家人，我不能不管你。

被感动到了！

谢谢你，爱我所爱！

　以前做市场研究时，与女人们聊做饭。

有女说“要想抓住男人的心，先要抓住男人的胃”并践行此道苦练煲汤技能。

我做人谦谨自然不会随便表示不屑，只好笑而不语，笑而不语。

　有一次我妈第68次跟我说要画点妆，我一如既往口头答应着心里当耳边风；妈补充了一个理由说，男人都希望自己媳妇漂亮点。

于是我没修养的叽哩呱啦了一大顿:干什么要靠这个取悦男人，这样的女人多可悲多可怜。

那语气里，好像姐就是天下女人的楷模。。

　姐自诩是独立女性，爱工作爱生活，自打因老公而搬到上海后，纵有多少不顺心，但找到喜欢的新工作，生活还真不错。

　　　GA S7E7里，Robbins获了个特牛逼的奖，要去非洲工作；Torres经过了上一集的郁闷，这一集想开了，准备和她一起去非洲。

　临行前，Mark提醒Torres：I've done a lot of boob jobs, but i also reverse a lot of boob jobs. Women come to me a year or two years after the work is done, and are totally unhappy with the decisions they've made. Mark说T就是那种因为恋人喜欢big rack就去给自己做个double D的人，而她的big rack就是非洲。

　姐在爱情中独立而自我，不为他刻意下厨房不为他而化妆，只是离开自己在北京八年里攒下的一众好友，放弃当时同事关系舒服又让我很有激情的工作，跟他来到一个离我自己爸妈和弟弟更遥远的而且不喜欢的城市。

看到这里，恍然大悟，之前一直没注意自己是多么大的一个二逼啊。

　Torres明白Mark的意思，解释说，but I love her. Mark说，I konw you do. But you need to figure out how to love Africa, too.　我以前真不知道一个城市会给人带来如此多的不舒服，姐做人谦谨，自然不会说是城市不好，只能说是自己太土，不容易适应国际化大都市。

比如此刻虽然开着空调我却还手脚冰凉的在这敲字。

真TM想有暖气啊。

　Torres也算是想得明白，既然自己是爱她，那去就去吧，二人在机场，Torres还说呢，到那也不错，没啥干扰，正好咱们好好研究医术。

　Robbins的不满意终于说了出来：姐得到这个机会，多牛X你也是知道吧，我花公家钱到非洲去救小孩儿，是在实现我这辈子最大的梦想，简直高兴死啦，高兴死啦。

结果可好，你尽扫我的兴，先是抱怨个没完没了，现在又假装满意假装热情，你丫把姐的兴致都给毁了。

算了，我不想跟你一起去了。

　Torres说，可怜的说：I can ... We can do this, we can figure this out. 然后Robbins冷冰冰的说，you stay here and be happy; And I'll go there and be happy. 俗称各回各家，各找各妈。

　喵了个咪的，冷不丁发生这么大件事，要一个人放弃好好的工作到一个前景未知的地方去，抱怨几声不正常吗；这么快就自我开解到肯强颜欢笑了，对方还不满意，嫌配合的不够真诚。

　你以为你做出牺牲了就有理了，扯淡，人家又没叫你陪，还不是你自己愿意来的。

　刚来到这个大城市，我抱怨过，不适应啊，以前一直以为就铁岭是大地方呢。

我抱怨了一阵，他说，我又不是你的垃圾筒。

吵架时他说，又没求着你来，不喜欢你走啊。

　我以为他是气话，原来是我误会了，人家真说正事儿，我偏没当正事儿听，真不知哪里来的自我感觉良好哦。

　后来我学会不抱怨，有什么不如意心里想想算了，算了，实在不喜欢吵架。

　按照一般的标准的话，我过的算是正常的，或者说还不错的，又有了喜欢的工作，按部就班一样样做着或准备做80后该做的事。

　我只是，真的越来越不快乐。

尤其是想到，比如此刻，我爸妈在北京待着呢，我却不在。

倘若我当初没这样做，我现在就可以时不常的看着他们了。

　I'm unhappy with the decision I've made, but not brave enough to reverse it.　Torres幸运之处在于Robbins在她们上飞机前就说了：你不高兴那我自己走好了。

真是为T省了好多时间、好多麻烦哦。

　我是多么希望，曾经的我，足够在乎自己的生活，多想想自己要的是什么，而不是那么盲目。

　那个说要抓住男人的胃的女人，只是花了些时间在厨房而已；说要打扮漂亮些的妈妈，一辈子倒是让爸爸死死的跟着她听她的；只有我这个现代独立二逼，跟着一个男人来到异地他乡，时不常的会掉眼泪。

　当一个人为另一个人做出牺牲时，无形中就会对爱有更高的要求。

这种要求会使两个人的关系发展更不容易。

　本来两个人在一起过日子就不是一件容易的事，尤其对于我们这一代来说，这回到好，有了更高的要求，经营家庭便更不容易了。

　所以，好的关系，重点是“顺便”：他在这里，她在这里，他想结婚，她也想结婚，越顺便，障碍便越少。

　牺牲，也许会为爱情增加力量让它跳得更高，但是它也把那根横杆调得更高了。

能不能跳得过去，反倒说不好。

疫情期间开始追，到现在已经追了将近一半了。

用一季度的时间看完了他们的7年，又哭又笑，里面的每一个姑娘我都好爱。

Meredith到这一季度很明显长大了呀，受妈妈的影响，从她没勇气接受别人的好，不太需要别人也不想被人需要，到迈出便利贴婚姻那一步，Derek教他什么是爱什么是责任，到这一季度她想成为妈妈了，一个好妈妈，尽管她不知道如何做，但zola的到来更柔软了她。

Cristina经历了枪击案之后在这一季度用了半年做创伤恢复期，Derek不知不觉也因为Meredith早把Cristina当家人了，钓鱼那Yang又哭又笑的真的戳到我了，在困难时期有人这样用心的开导真的是幸福啊，恢复之后的杨又成了最闪亮的那块金子，I love her so much，爱她毒舌真性情那种老娘就是棒及对事业的那份笃定！

季末她打掉孩子那块感觉Owen还是不太适合她，想Burke的第六个季度了，我心中这部剧的best man啊，他离开的最意难平。

五小强里面的Alex，让人讨厌的自私冷漠毒舌，但又觉得会心疼他，他也在很努力的变好，细心的为大家着想，反过来想，一个真自私冷漠的人怎么可以热爱儿科呢？

本季里面他无意间醉酒后把Meredith偷换实验数据告诉Owen，Owen导致mer差点被开除，他的信誉人品在同事之间跌到谷底，他假装无所谓还一直再争住院总的那段日子，直到yang没忍住去骂他，他像小孩子一样和yang吵架说出“你们怎么可这样对我，你们这几个家伙是我在这的全部啊”，啊，真的真实嗷，太戳人了，猛男撒娇，最为致命，Alex就像那个慢慢长大的大男孩。

爱Torres爱金毛爱Lexie。

拉拉后的Torres更自信勇敢了；金毛还是放不下大C，从非洲跑回来和怀了Mark宝宝的Torres重新在一起；Lexie一直像个小女孩一样，讨厌Mark对他的伤害又放不下对Mark的爱…还有这一季April，hahaha，没想到她成为住院总，上一季对她的感觉没太有，枪击案后，owen创伤课那次演练让我眼前一亮，这个女孩在一群个性明显的女孩儿们中让人慢慢也看到了属于自己的光芒。

这群在事业中奔跑的女孩们，Cool and sweet girls, I love you sososo much!

当Meredith在电梯里对Derek哭着说：What the hell is going on?What's the point?I mean,is there a reason for this?Because if you can think of a reason,any reason at all,why the universe is so screwed up, and random and mean,now would be an amazingly good time to tell me,because I really need some answers.我终于忍不住和她一起崩溃了。

七年了，GA陪伴我已经七年了，生命中最珍贵的七年。

她如一位老友，和我一起成长。

我看着Meredith如何一点点挣扎出母亲的阴影，如何遇到真爱却屡遭不顺，如何凭借天分和努力挣得一席之地，如何与Christina始终彼此信任、不离不弃，如何像无数观众期待的一样，和Derek迈入结婚的殿堂，又如何渐渐成熟、平静与宽容，不再是dark and twisted的姐妹花之一。

这种成长如此缓慢而真实，仿佛就是我们每个人的生活，虽屡遭坎坷，却依然倔强前行。

回顾整整七季的GA，岁月的痕迹如此清晰而温厚，你看着这些医生们从浮躁的毛头小子，到承担起为人夫为人父的责任，看他们如何在遭受打击时借酒浇愁、或是与世隔离，萎靡不振，甚至放弃自己钟爱的专业，是，他们都是普通人，如同你我，在痛苦时流泪或逃避，在受伤后躲藏起来如同野兽，默默舔舐伤口。

episode1 With You I'm Born Again.op:Every cell in human body regenerates,on average,7 years.Like snakes,in our own way,we shed our skin.Biologically,we're brand-new people.We may look the same.We probably do.The change isn't visible,at least not most of us.But we're all changed,completely,forever.But it's normal,I mean,it's a biological imperative(应激性的) change.ed:When we say things like'people don't change',it drives scientists crazy.Because change is literally the only constant in all science.Energy,matter,is always changing,morphing,merging,growing,dying...It's the way people trying not to change that's natural, the way we cling to what things were instead of letting them be what they are, the way we cling to our memories instead of forming new ones, the way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that everything in this lifetime is permenent.Change is constant.How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance of life.If we open our fingers,loosen our grips,go with it,it can feel like pure adrenaline.Like at any moment,we can have another chance at life.Like at any moment,we can be born all over again.episode2 Shock to the System.op:They say lightening never strikes twice,but that's a myth. It doesn't happen often. Lightening usually gets it right the first time. When you're hit with 30,000 amps(安培) of electricity,you feel it. It can make you forget who you are. It can burn you,blind you,stop your heart, and cause massive internal injuries. But for something that happens in only a millisecond,it can change your life forever.ed:Lightening doesn't often strike twice. It's a once-in-a-lifetime thing. Even if it feels like the shock is coming over and over again. Eventually,the pain will go away,the shock will wear off, and you start to heal yourself, to recover from something you never saw coming. If you're in just the right place, at just the right time, you can take a hell of hit, and still have a shot at surviving.episode3 Super Freak.op:Most of surgeons grew up being freaks. When other kids play outside,we holed up in our rooms, memorizing the periodic table(元素周期表),huddling for hours over our junior microscope, dissecting our first frogs. Imagine how surprised and relievied we were,when we grew up and found out there were others out there,just as freaky as we were. Same microscope,same dead frogs,same inexplicable(莫名的) urge to take human beings apart.April:Stop,okay?I'm a virgin,yes.So what? It's not something i talk about,okay? We all have things we don't talk about.Alex,you're been afraid of the elevator for,like,a month,but i never said anything because it's none of my business. And Jackson,you wake up every night screaming, because you have nightmares. And,Meredith,you don't talk about Christina because you're afraid she's never gonna be the same Christina again. And,Lexie...for god's sake,Mark never thought you're a psycho.He loves you! That's why he stares at you,because he can't keep his eyes off the woman he loves. Of course,he's never saying anything,'cause he doesn't feel like he can. Look,we all have stuff we don't talk about.I am a 28-year-old virgin,mainly because I wanted my first time to be special. And then,I waited too long,and partially because I'm pretty sure guys find me annoying.I'm a virgin.That does't make it drinks conversation.We all have stuff we don't talk about!//我好喜欢看April和Lexie freak out...ed:Nobody chooses to be a freak. Most people don't even realize they're a freak until it's way too late to change it. But no matter how much of a freak you end up being,chances are, there's still someone out there for you. Unless,of course,they've already moved on... Because when it comes to love,even freaks can't wait forever.episode4 Can't Fight Biology.op:Biology determines much of the way we live. From the moment we were born,we know how to breathe and eat. As we grow older,new instincts kick in. We become territorial. We learn to compete. We seek shelter. Most important of all,we reproduce(繁衍后代). Sometimes biology can turn on us,though. Yeah,biology sucks sometimes.Lexie:No,you know what? I've been a total bitch to April all day because of you. You know that? You worry about April,you let her have Izzie's room,you talk to her about your doctor's appointments, and I went crazy. Alex ditched me in a psych ward,Mark slept with Derek's sister, and now I find myself relating to the crazy,jealous lady who drives into laudromats!Meredith:Lexie,I had a miscarriage that day. April was there. That's why she knows about my doctor's appointment. And I did know that Mark slept with Amy,but I didn't think you cared. I can never tell what the hell is going on with you two. And as far as the psych ward goes,you were not alone. I sat by your bedside for 36 hours while you slept. You're not crazy,Lexie. You're a Grey. :)ed:Our D.N.A doesn't account for all of us,though.(基因并不能解释我们的一切.) We're human. Life changes us. We develop new traits,become less territorial. We stop competing. We learn from out mistakes. We face our greatest fears. For better or worse,we find ways to become more than our biology. The risk,of course,is that we can change too much to the point we don't recognize ourselves. Finding our way back can be difficult. There's no compass,no map. We just have to close our eyes,take a step,and hope to God we'll get there. episode5 Almost Grown.op:They train doctors slowly. They watch us practice on frogs and pigs and dead people and then live people. They drill us relentlessly, they raise us like children and eventually they take a cold, hard boot and they kick us out of the nest.ed:We're so busy trying to get out of that nest that we don't think about the fact that it's going to be cold out there...really freaking cold. Because growing up sometimes means leaving people behind. And by the time we stand on our own two feet, we are standing there alone.episode6 These Arms of Mine.op:Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital, home to some of the finest, most influential doctors in the country. Several months ago a gunman roamed these halls, leaving eleven people dead and even more injured. Today we visit the survivors, their patients, their triumphs, and their disappointments. This is Seattle Grace Mercy West, road to recovery.ed:None.episode7 That's Me Trying.op:When was the last time a complete stranger took offer clothes in front of you, pointed to a big purple splotch on her back, and asked, "What the hell is this thing?" If you're a normal person, the answer is, hopefully never. If you're a doctor, the answer is, probably, about 5 minutes ago. People expect doctors to have all of the answers. The truth is, we love to think that we have all of the answers. Basically, doctors are know-it-alls until, something comes along to remind us that we're not.ed:We're all looking for answers...in medicine...in life...in everything. Sometimes the answers we're looking for are hiding just below the surface. Other times we find answers when we didn't even realize we were asking a question. Sometimes the answers can catch us completely by surprise. And sometimes, even when we find the answer we've been looking for, we're still left with a whole hell of a lot of questions.episode8 Something's Gotta Give.op:The human body is a highly pressurized system. The blood pressure measures the force of blood pulsating through the body. It's important to keep this pressure regulated. Low or inadequate pressure an cause weakness or failure. It's when the pressure gets too high that problems really occur. If the pressure continues to increase, a closer examination is called for because it's the best indicator that something is going terribly wrong. Bailey:Eat when you can,sleep when you can,and don't screw with the pancreas(胰腺).ed:Every pressurized system needs a relief valve. There has to be a way to reduce the stress, the tension, before it becomes too much to bare. There has to be a way to find relief because if the pressure doesn't find a way out, it will make one. It will explode. It's the pressure we put on ourselves that's the hardest to bare. The pressure to be better then we already are. The pressure to be better than we think we can be. It never ever lets up. It just builds and builds and builds.episode9 Slow Night, So Long.op:We doctors take pride in the fact that we can basically sleep standing up, anytime, anywhere. But, it's a false pride because the truth is after twenty hours without sleep you might as well just come to work drunk, doctor or not. So it's no wonder that fatal medical errors increase at night when we doctors are proudly sleeping on our feet. Recently our communal pride has been shattered and our egos have been wounded by new laws that require we sleep all day before we work all night. We are not happy about it. But, as someone who might need medical care, you really should be.Teddy:You're married.You don't get to have an opinion about my pathetic forays into Internet dating. ed:Under the cover of darkness, people do things they never do under the harsh glare of day. Decisions feel wiser. People feel older. But, when the sun rises, you have to take responsibility for what you did in the dark. And face yourself under the cold harsh light of day.episode10 Adrift and at Peace .op:Meredith: The goal of any surgery is total recovery - to come out better than you were before. Some patients heal quickly and feel immediate relief. For others the healing happens gradually, and it's not until months or even years later that you realize you don't hurt anymore. So the challenge after any surgery is to be patient. But if you can make it through the first weeks and months, if you believe that healing is possible, then you can get your life back. But that's a big if.ed:The first 24 hours after surgery are critical. Every breath you take, every fluid you make, is meticulously reported and analyzed. Celebrated or mourned. But what about the next 24 hours? What happens with that first day turns to two and weeks turn into months? What happens when the immediate danger has passed, when the machines are disconnected and the teams of doctors and nurses are gone? Surgery is when you get saved, but post-op, after surgery, is when you heal. But, what if you don't?episode11 Disarm.op:To a degree, medicine is a science...but I would argue that it's also an art. The doctors who see medicine as a science only, you don't want them by your side when you're bleeding won't stop or when your child is screaming in pain. The clinicians go by the book. The artists follow their guts. The artists feel your pain and they go to extremes to make it stop. Extreme measures. That's where science ends and art begins.ed: Surgery is extreme. We cut into your body, take out pieces, and put what's left back together. Good thing life doesn't come with a scalpel because if it did, when things started to hurt, we would just cut and cut and cut. The thing is what we take away with a scalpel we can't ever get back. So, like a said, good thing.episode12 Start Me Up.op:People are really romantic about the beginnings of things. Fresh start. Clean slate. A world of possibility. But no matter what adventure you're embarking on, you're still you. You bring you into every new beginning in your life, so how different can it possibly be.Callie: My lack of interest in seeing you is not a strategy. I'm not playing hard to get. I don't want to see you because I turned my life upside down for you and you walked away because for a week I was cranky. You're untrustworthy, so I don't want to see you. You're self-centered, so I don't want to see you. I am a hundred percent certain that if I let you back in my life again you will hurt me again, so I don't want to see you. This isn't a ploy. I'm not pouting. I don't want you in my life. Get your crap out of my apartment.ed:It's all anybody wants, right? Clean slate. A new beginning. Like that's gonna be any easier. Ask the guy pushing the boulder up the hill. Nothing's easy about starting over. Nothing at all.episode13 Don't Deceive Me(Please Don't Go).op:Doctors practice deception all the time. We give vague answers to hard questions. We don't talk about post-op pain. We say you'll experience some discomfort. If you didn't die, we tell you the surgery went well, but the placebo has to be the doctor's greatest deception. Half of our patients we tell the other truth ... the other half, we pray the placebo effect's real. And we tell ourselves that they'll feel better anyhow, believing help's on the way, when, in fact, we're leaving them to die.ed:Doctors practice deception every day — on our patients, on their families. But the worst deception we practice is on ourselves. Which is why sometimes it takes us a while to realize that the truth has been in front of us the whole time.episode14 P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing).op:One of the hardest lessons as a doctor is learning to prioritize(分清主次). We're trained to do all we can to save life and limb, but, if cutting off a limb, means saving a life, we learn to do it without hesitation. It's not an easy lesson to learn, and it always comes down to one question, "what are the stakes?" What do we stand to gain or lose? At the end of the day, we're just gamblers trying not to bet the farm.ed:Surgery is a high stakes game. But no matter how high the stakes, sooner or later, you're just going to have to go with your gut, and, maybe just maybe, that'll take you right where you were meant to be in the first place.episode15 Golden Hour.op:How much can you actually accomplish in an hour? Run an errand maybe, sit in traffic, get an oil change. When you think about it an hour isn't very long. Sixty minutes. Thirty-six hundred seconds. That's it. In medicine, though, an hour is often everything. We call it the golden hour. That magical window of time that can determine whether a patient lives or dies.ed:An hour, one hour, can change everything forever. An hour can save your life. An hour can change your mind. Sometimes an hour is a gift we give ourselves. For some, an hour can mean almost nothing. For others, an hour makes all the difference in the world. But in the end, it's still just an hour, one of many,many more to come. Sixty minutes. Thirty-six hundred seconds. That's it. Then it starts all over again. And who knows what the next hour might hold.episode16 Not Responsible.op:Everyone figures doctors are the most responsible people they know. They hold lives in their hands. They're not flakes. They don't lose track of important details or make stunningly bad judgment calls. 'Cause that would be bad, right?ed:We are responsible with our patients. The problem is we blow it all out at work. In our own lives, we can't think things through. We don't make the sound choice. We did that all day at the hospital. When it comes to ourselves, we've got nothing left. And is it worth it—being responsible? Because if take your vitamins and pay your taxes and never cut the line, the universe still gives you people to love and then lets them slip through your fingers like water, and what've you got? Vitamins and nothing.episode17 This Is How We Do It.op:Renegades, rule-breakers, gangsters with scalpels. This is the way we like to think of ourselves. It makes us feel badass, sexy. Problem is it's not exactly true. At heart, we're rule followers, sheep. We don't break protocol. We follow it to a "T." Because if we don't follow protocol, our patients die, and then we're no longer badass. We're just bad.ed:It's every doctor's dilemma. Do you play it safe and follow protocol? Or take a risk and invent a new one? There can be reward in risk. There can also be fallout. Still you need to book the system every once in a while. Bet big. And when you get the results you want, there's no better feeling in the world, but when you don't...episode18 Song Beneath The Song.op:The brain is the human body's most mysterious organ. It learns. It changes. It adapts. It tells us what we see, what we hear. It lets us feel love. I think it holds our soul. And no matter how much research we do, no one can really say how all that delicate grey matter inside our skull works. And, when it's hurt, when the human brain is traumatized, well, that's when it gets even more mysterious.episode19 It's a Long Way Back.op:After a trauma, your body is at its most vulnerable. Response time is critical. So you're suddenly surrounded by people—doctors, nurses, specialists, technicians—surgery is a team sport. Everyone pushing for the finish line. Putting you back together again. But surgery is a trauma in and of itself, and once it's over, the real healing begins. It's called recovery. Recovery is not a team sport. It's a solitary distance run. It's long. It's exhausting. And it's lonely as hell.ed:The length of your recovery is determined by the extent of your injuries. And it's not always successful. No matter how hard we work at it. Some wounds might never fully heal. You might have to adjust to a whole new way of living. Things may have changed too radically to ever go back to what they were. You might not even recognize yourself. It's like you haven't recovered anything at all. You're a whole new person with a whole new life.episode 20 White Wedding.op:Diseases. Toxins. Our bodies encounter dangers all the time. Just beneath the surface hidden. Whether you realize it or not, your body is constantly protecting itself. Every time you blink your eye, you wash away thousands of unwanted microbes. Breathe in too much unwanted pollen, and you sneeze. The body detects the invader. It releases its white blood cells, and it attacks.ed:Just when we think we figured things out, the universe throws us a curveball. So, we have to improvise. We find happiness in unexpected places. We find ourselves back to the things that matter the most. The universe is funny that way. Sometimes it just has a way of making sure we wind up exactly where we belong.episode 21 I Will Survive.op:We've all heard the saying. It's one of those things you learn in seventh grade science class. Adapt or die. Adapting isn't easy though. You have to fight your competition and off their attacks. And sometimes, you have to kill. You do what you need to do to survive.ed:Adapt or die. As many times as we've heard it, the lesson doesn't get easier. The problem is we're human. We want more than just to survive. We want love. We want success. We want to be the best that we can be. So, we fight like hell to get those things. Anything else feels like death.episode 22 | Unaccompanied Minor.op:I always said I'd be happier alone. I have my work, my friends, but someone in your life all the time? More trouble than it's worth. Apparently, I got over it.ed:There is a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasnt because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don't have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever...

S7E17一直不明白为啥这两个人会走到一起，然后结婚。

相比Cristina的耀眼，Owen显得温文但平庸。

而那一段作为军医的黑暗历史虽然可以为他的男子气概加分以外，基本没什么特别了。

虽然拿前男友来说有点不厚道，不过burke比他耀眼多了。

首先是激情。

Actually,我觉得这两个人触电的时候怎么都觉得不自然……囧战争的后遗症很难搞，但是Cristina can handle it.而Cristina低谷的时候，两人结婚了。

估计C自己也不知道是怎么的一回事，是想通过结婚的改变而让自己返回正轨还是真的因为想结婚而结婚。

出乎意料的是，Owen二话不说答应了。

Owen虽然并不是天才，但是显然也不是蠢材，他应该也想过这问题。

然后无论C在第六季前半季疯成怎样，Owen都是默默地接受，然后一直没有停止过为了她恢复所做的努力。

没有抱怨，just一往入故的平静。

那时候Altman的看到C在酒吧当酒保的时候已经近乎绝望了，作为她的老师，自己所看过最优秀的学生成了这样子。

那么这时候，作为C的丈夫的Owen的心情呢？

刻意疏远M，同事虽然想帮她但是也逐渐放弃。

D虽然是不会放弃去帮她，但是他毕竟是人家的丈夫。

于是，剩下的只有Owen了。

虽然最后的钓鱼那里也是很偶然地触发她恢复，但是如果O不再，C也不会吃饱穿暖地走到那一步。

今天看到Owen吃批萨的时候才真正意识到，这个男人果然是Cristina的丈夫啊。

C听到消息后又陷入了极端panic和nervous的状态，然后这个男人可以静静地一边吃一边看妻子慌乱地乱舞。

只有这样才能跟Cristina一起生活啊，否则跟着那个发疯命都短几年……记得以前O跟S说过，M和C就像ET里面的ET和孩子，一个生病了另一个也会生病；大家是坐在同一条船上面啊～那次第一次被这突如其来的精辟又搞笑的发言震到了，一边笑一边觉得好对。

可能那时候，O已经很清楚在C身边意味这什么了吧。

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结束第七季 ，我知道它还没有结束 ，只是最后很想点根烟 很想狠狠吸一口烟。

很多人都离开了 很多 用爱支起生活 可是爱就那么破碎了 这是结束语 这部是我看过最长的电视剧了 一直没有放弃它 中间有过停顿 但就这样看完了 生活不断改变 痛苦隐匿在某处 但阳光总在风雨后 她们的甜蜜与笑容 足以忘记那些 虽然阳光不是常在 起码它掩盖了那些伤痛。

Arizona向Torres求婚的时候，没有什么哭点 ，我只是，只是听到那句“marry me" 受到极大的震撼 突然哽咽 泪如泉涌 打不住 。

只是没想到后面就是煎熬着巨大的痛苦去迎接知足的幸福。

微笑可以掩盖空洞，幸福可以冲刷痛苦。

所以，暴雨常有的，但后面总也会有阳光，

I spent 4 days watching season 7. And compared with the earlier seasons, it's still very high standard/quality. I used to love Christina for her brilliant. But now i feel like this might lead to one of her weakness as well - she's unwilling to follow the protocal. She thinks too much of her good performance but neglect the importance of the rules of being a relatively junior position. Finally she will learn her lesson by a big failure. I'm worried about Meridith too. Hope she'll be fine in next season.